Moments that Change us!

When I saw this list of six moments that change a woman forever on the internet, I was rather intrigued by their reasoning for it.  I am not sure this list would be the same for myself personally because my life has been heavily characterized by my walk with my Heavenly Father.

If I think back now over my life, I believe that the 6 moments that have changed me have been…

1.       Giving my life to Jesus Christ at 10yr

2.       Being filled with His Holy Spirit at 16yrs

3.       Choosing to say yes to my husband at 22yrs

4.       Loss of Mother, Father & Dog Toby

5.       Betrayal heartbreak and rebuilding

6.       Hope in Christ for what is ahead

Accepting that I can’t do this on my own without Him in control

Because of accepting the Lord Jesus into my heart at kids camp as a child – the Lord used a word of scripture given to me back then, that brought about a Mission trip when I was in my forties to Sri Lanka in 2008 (when they were going through civil war) that was a powerful stepping stone into Gods plan and purpose for me – Amazing! – see my book ‘Door of Hope’ for more on that story!

Empowering me and equipping me with a helper to do my journey alongside me

By allowing the Holy Spirit to fill my life and speak in and through me, I have been able to make choices that have astounded myself and others because it was Him that showed through and certainly was not me.  God, through His Holy Spirit has brought about supernatural things in my life that have enabled me to bloom and be who He created me to be – I’m still learning and growing…

Humbling me and understanding that it’s not all about me in my journey

Choosing to say yes to walk with a partner for life has more to do with God wanting us to do life in relationship and experiencing His love through the process but because understanding other choices around us are hard at times this has been my biggest challenge to date.  Willing to understand my partner in life and that God loves him and has a plan for him too has been on occasions a bolt of lightning, especially when he was walking through chemo treatments and huge health struggles, but God is so merciful and good for many reasons.  I am thankful for God continuing to walk with us both in all we do for Him.

Loss and vulnerability

What do I say here – I lost my mother in 2020 who was 86, then seven months later my father who was 86 and again seven months later had to put my dog of 18 yrs down.  Not only did I cry more for my dog than my parents but the whole ordeal of all three of them at the time I felt were going to do me in for sure. From governmental and health care inquiries, national financial crimes investigations and horrendous legal paperwork ‘hoops’ to jump through I am convinced that no family should ever have to be tortured with any of the questioning and judgement calls on other family members.  Not only did I feel I was just an administrator at the time of my ordeal, but I also felt robbed of not being a daughter in a time that was needed to show love, comfort and support through a season of farewells.

Betrayal, heartbreak & rebuilding

As mentioned above, I felt betrayed by an invasive data hacker/intruder who not only stole my personal (& hubby’s) information but stole finances that were my responsibility to protect on behalf of my parents, and I failed ☹

Not only that but during the same period other family information was revealed that broke my heart due to accusations from ‘loved ones’ that reared their heads like…

⁸ Be careful—watch out for attacks from Satan, your great enemy. He prowls around like a hungry, roaring lion, looking for some victim to tear apart. – 1 Peter 5:8 TLB

So, when you have to rebuild again, and we did – we had to wipe a lot away and start again to deal with our technology from a safe platform.  It is not nice, and you feel very vulnerable but again it’s about putting your trust in God.

Hope in Christ for what is ahead

Yes, I have a hope and a future because of my faith in Jesus Christ, and I would not have it any other way.  He has been the reason I have come through the other side of so many darts thrown in my/our direction and I will keep pursuing my life with Him at the helm, always.

In the picture at the beginning, it says ‘Moments that change a woman for ever’ – yes, I would say the above moments I have shared have changed me forever, but I would say for the better.  I have learned, matured, grown in ways that I could not have perceived.  I believe I have become more of who God created me to be, back in the beginning when I was thought of and designed by Him…

⁵ “I knew you before you were formed within your mother’s womb; before you were born I sanctified you and appointed you as my spokesman to the world.” – Jeremiah 1:5 TLB

Also, in picture above, in their point 6, it says ‘Accepting that no one is coming to rescue her’.  I must disagree with that point because I know without a doubt that Jesus has rescued me on many occasions and I have experienced again and again first-hand the miraculous ways that He has turned my life around – read some of my accounts in both my books ‘Door of Hope’ and ‘Fragrance’.

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Loving Lord, there is so much happening in my life at the moment. Changes seem to be taking place in every area of my life, friends and neighbours have moved far away, my loved ones have passed on, tensions seems to be surrounding me on every side. But my hope and trust is in You.

As I step out into the future, in the face of all the changes and challenges that are taking place all around me, I pray that You will continue to be with me to lead and to guide, to help and to protect, to comfort and support. Lord, I cling to You for You are the Rock of my Salvation, my Defence and my Defender.

Thank You, Lord, that in this world of flux and change, You are the same yesterday, today and for ever. Thank You, that You are with me in all the changing scenes and situations of my life and thank You that You are coming back soon, to take all who trust in Your name to be with You forever. I cling to You Lord, for my hope and my future is in You alone. In Jesus' name I pray,

Amen